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Eden Vision
03:27
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there’s something stirring in my head
something that pulls me out of bed
I memorize the words you said to me
and replay the moments I forget
I’m drifting gently through the streets
I’m losing traction in the heat
I left my head inside your sheets I sweat through
only to wake up in a dream
I don’t believe in what I can’t see
your memory starts to recede
I don’t believe that spirits linger
there is no form
I can’t see you anymore
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2. |
Heirloom
04:33
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my mom and dad remain conjoined by nothing more than not to be alone
my fingertips are running through your alopecian hair and this is home
your house alive with apparitions, will we ever truly be alone?
is it too much to ask you will our makeshift shelter ever feel like home?
I think it’s true that people like me, brutalized, we always die alone
a history of faggots burning brilliantly just to heat their homes
I take it on - a legacy of fear and paranoia spent alone
I cling to you for in each other’s pain and grief is where we feel at home
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3. |
Waves of History
02:57
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wounds inside my open doubt
(resigned) (full time)
all to feel you inside out
(inside) (draw line)
waves of history come and go
(look back) (turn in)
oh the poison, feel it flow
(give slack) (begin)
((do you have the time?))
long to hold in public eye
(look back) (turn in)
use my fear just to survive
(give slack) (begin)
history keeps me up at night
(inside) (draw line)
I keep putting up a fight
(full time) (resigned)
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4. |
Idle (w/ Eel Tank)
04:14
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idle by the time I learn to show you
how the engine in me sputters out
idle in the car outside of your room
can’t remember what this one’s about
idolize the pieces left inside me you forgot
all the remnants of your DNA begin to rot
wonder if I’ll get the chance to follow
your example leading below ground
all my memories replaced and hollow
all that’s left embedded in the sound
idolize the pieces left inside me you forgot
all the remnants of your DNA begin to rot
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5. |
Envelop
03:27
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come inside and make yourself at home
your hair is soaked your skin is getting cold
I’ll make you tea and I’ll leave you alone
the truth is forming, the pattern’s being shown
wind envelops, shakes me to my core
seasons change and leave me wanting more
stay the night and show me what it’s for
hold me close, I’ll never close the door
come inside and take what you might need
I open myself to your potential greed
all these warnings I never thought to heed
in the morning I’ll wake up feeling free
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6. |
Cautiously
03:55
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implanted longing for milk gone bad
thanks to my uncle, thanks to my dad
the men who taught me the violence of love
try to unlearn it, it fits like a glove
I haven’t changed much, I’m still that kid
scared into silence, trying to be rid
of their acceptance, but still I seek
approval from men who want me weak
and I agree cautiously
and I agree to be free
find strength in David, find peace in rage
learn to accept it, page after page
I fade so easy in illicit beds
if I were your age I would be dead
I’m no survivor, I can’t withstand
my limp inflection my sweaty hands
told it gets better but so have they
their knives have sharpened, my shields decay
and I agree cautiously
and I agree to be free
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7. |
Milk & Honey
02:56
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didn't mean to tell you that / can we take another stab? / in a year we'll be okay / can it wait another day
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8. |
Reaching
02:27
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spill my head across the floor
I don’t know why or know what for
I get sucked in I can’t let go
I get so scared I get so low
you crawl across the forest floor
I know your language to the core
I get sucked through the open door
I get so scared I get so low I’m
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9. |
Folded
03:29
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who's always been?
who's caught within?
who pulled the pin?
i'm caught up in your fever skin
love forbidden
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10. |
See It Thru
02:15
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return to learn about the evenings
given the chance to start believing
my shape expands to match the space I fill
I am far gone it is relieving
try not to look over my shoulder
try to stop growing any older
my shape consumes the space around me
still I carry on with this disorder
and see it through
and see it through
return to learn of contradiction
I long to feed my inhibition
all these mistakes I made will carry on
I will hold fast to my condition
and see it through
and see it through
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11. |
From the Ground
03:09
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bend toward the eye
watching over me every night
it’s no surprise
find myself underneath the knife
inside my mouth
find broken fragments spit them out
I keep holding out
to see what comes up from the ground
I can’t see thru
but it’s all I want to do
my fear withdrew
and that’s all I need from you
when I was young
my fever like a smoking gun
I thought they won
but the pattern’s only just begun
so if I grow old
I’ll finally know what I can hold
my hands will fold
can’t grasp the beauty you behold
I can’t see thru
but it’s all I want to do
my fear withdrew
and that’s all I need from you
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